Seasonal Depression: How I Found Calm in the Dark Days
Winter has always weighed heavily on me. Living in Europe, where the days are so short that the sun feels like a rare and fleeting guest, I felt my energy slipping away. The gray skies, constant cold, and rain created a combination that slowly drained my will to get out of bed, interact, or even enjoy the little things in life.
At first, I thought it was just fatigue or a passing slump. But as the years went by, I realized it was something more. It felt like I was being pulled down, trapped in a fog of sadness and apathy. That’s when I discovered what I was facing had a name: Seasonal Depression.
If you feel the same when winter arrives, know that you’re not alone. I want to share what I’ve learned along this journey—not as a magic solution, but as a point of connection. Perhaps these experiences can help you navigate the darker days.
How I Recognized the Signs of Seasonal Depression
In the early winters, I tried to ignore what I was feeling. I thought it was just “nonsense” or a phase that would pass. But the more I fought it, the harder it became. The sadness came with an inexplicable fatigue, difficulty concentrating, and a strong urge to withdraw from the world.
It was a relief to discover that there was a name and explanation for what I was experiencing. Seasonal depression is directly linked to a lack of sunlight, which affects the production of serotonin and melatonin—neurotransmitters that regulate mood and sleep. Understanding this was a turning point for me.
Suddenly, I realized I wasn’t “broken.” It was my body responding to environmental conditions. Recognizing the problem was the first step toward addressing it.
Seeking Light on Cloudy Days
Sunlight became my greatest ally. During the winter months, even small moments outdoors made a difference. I started to make it a habit to go for a walk, even if it was short, during the brightest hours of the day.
On some days, the sky was so overcast it felt like it didn’t matter, but I made it a commitment to myself. Opening the curtains in the morning, sitting by a window, or taking a quick stroll around the block were simple gestures that gradually transformed my mood.
The Power of Movement in Winter
I’d often heard that exercise helps combat sadness, but I’ll admit—just the thought of dressing up to face the cold was discouraging. So, I decided to start small.
On good days, I take brisk walks or ride my bike, feeling the fresh air on my face. When the weather doesn’t cooperate, I play my favorite music and dance in the living room or join an online spinning class. It’s not about intense workouts; it’s about keeping my body moving in ways that make me feel good.
Creating Comfort at Home: My Winter Sanctuary
My home became a sanctuary during the colder months. I realized how much the space around me affects how I feel. Small details can make a big difference:
- Scented candles: I light candles with calming scents like lavender or vanilla.
- Relaxing music: I play soothing playlists while cooking or reading.
- Cozy blankets: Soft throws keep me warm as I read a book or watch a series.
These little habits helped me redefine winter. Instead of seeing it as a time of isolation, I began to embrace it as a season of comfort.
Food That Nourishes and Comforts
Another crucial step was paying attention to what I ate. Initially, I only craved comfort foods—hot soups, bread, and sweets. But I learned my body needed balance.
Incorporating omega-3-rich fish, nuts, and colorful vegetables made a noticeable difference in my energy and mood. At the same time, I learned to be kind to myself. If one day I want an extra piece of chocolate or a homemade cake, that’s okay. Eating is also about pleasure, especially in a season that demands so much from us.
The Value of Rest in Winter’s Rhythm
Perhaps the most important lesson I learned was to accept winter’s slower pace. At first, I felt guilty for not being as productive as in the summer, but now I see it differently.
If I’m tired, I rest. I’ve learned to listen to my body and respect what it needs, whether it’s an afternoon watching movies or a few extra hours of sleep. Resting is an act of self-care.
The Importance of Human Connection
One of the things that helped me most was realizing I didn’t have to face this alone. Talking to friends or family—even through a quick message or phone call—brought a sense of warmth and belonging.
If you feel overwhelmed, consider seeking professional support. Sharing how you feel, whether with a therapist or someone you trust, can lighten the burden. Often, just the act of opening up makes a difference.
A Final Reflection
Winter is still challenging for me, but now I see it as an opportunity to slow down, embrace myself, and care for myself in ways that make sense. If you’re also facing difficult days this season, know that it’s okay to take it slow. Explore your needs, discover what makes you feel good, and allow yourself to find small joys.
If anything I’ve shared resonated with you, I’d love to hear your experience. How do you cope with the darker days? Let’s support each other on this journey. Together, we can bring more light to winter.
